Goodbye, My Rosey Love

How do you do it? How do you consciously make a decision to end a life? Especially the life of one that can't tell you, in human words, anything? I love her. I don't want to make that choice. In the end, I had no choice.

I loved Rosey because she needed me and I needed something to take care of. It was a match made in heaven. 

It has taken some time for me to put these words down. They've been scattered everywhere, whenever a new thought popped in my head.

Rosey, this is for you: 

The time has come to say goodbye my love. To nuzzle you, kiss you, pet you, hold you one last time. 

You kept me alive, so I must let you go. I wanted you but sometimes, I didn't.

You were hard to get to know. 

I wish I could have lived in your mind for just awhile. I wanted to know everything about you, what made you tick. 

When I met you, I was dying; depressed and withdrawn. I didn't want to live. 

Having to imagine the rest of my life without you, that is the hardest part. 

I didn't keep you to be some kind of saint. I kept you because I couldn't bear to let you go.

I will miss your stubbornness and the way you used to nuzzle my head. 

You didn't bark for 2 WHOLE YEARS. But once you started, you never shut it off.  You always let me know how you were feeling.  But that's okay. I loved your bark. 

Except not at 5 in the morning on a Saturday when I didn't have to work. 

I remember meeting you for the first time, not knowing what to expect because you weren't a puppy and I wasn't your 'FIRST' life. 

At night, I listened to you breathing wondering when it would be your last. 

I would kiss the top of your head and feel it vibrate, jiggle.  I wish I knew what that meant. 

You won't be forgotten! I still think of Trixie and Midget and see them in my dreams. I hope you will visit me too. 

Don't let Midget give you any lip! She's a feisty one. 

In the end, I wanted you to live forever, but I could tell you were tired, so I let you go. 

I just hope you know how much you were loved. 

Rosey Tyler April 2008 - August 2016

Election Day Observations

Today is November 8, 2016. I always vote on Election Day.  I’m actually glad I did this year because I heard that the Early Voting lines were really long.  My line was long, but not 2 hours long.  I also like voting first thing in the morning and getting it over with.  I usually adjust my morning routine so that I’m at my voting place when it opens.  I entered the queue at 6:45 a.m. and I was back in my car at 7:20 a.m.  When I put my ballot in the machine, it told me I was voter #150. In 45 minutes, 150 people had already voted at the elementary school where I went to vote.  When leaving, someone driving the wrong way almost hit me. Ugh!! Pay attention to the signs people. 

When I drove by the school on my way to work (because I went home afterwards to get ready for work) I noticed there was no longer a line outside the building.  Maybe I should have waited.  No.  I’m glad I got to be #150.

I’m glad you can no longer vote a Straight Party ticket.  I know some people actually go in and just vote for the president.  They either forget or don’t care about all of the other offices that need our vote.  I’m okay with that.  If you don’t care or don’t want to learn about all the others, then I don’t want you to vote for them.  I actually wish they would remove the Party Designation by each name.

I’m glad that after today, there will be no more political commercials on TV and radio, no more recyclable materials in my mailbox, no more phone calls from weird numbers (I never answer!) and no more people going door to door. 

I hope that after today, all of my Facebook friends will just stop talking about it.  I want each and every one of you to know that nothing you posted on your Facebook wall influenced my vote.  Nothing! I have actually unfriended a few people over the years because they would just get downright nasty in their posts. If you are going to be nasty (and not in a funny way because I can get sarcasm) then I don’t want to be friends with you.  Again, I’m okay with that because If you are a bully for either side, move on.  I don’t do bullies.  I don’t do name calling.  See ya later!

I hope all the “celebrities” shut up. And if you said you would move if the person you didn’t vote for wins, please do so.  And make a TV show out of it.  I might watch it.  Unless it’s on cable and then no, I won’t watch it because I’m not going to pay to see your show. Celebrities live a lifestyle I will never have (nor do I want if I’m being truthful).  They don’t know my struggles or what it’s like to live my lifestyle. I don’t and won’t ever go to them for voting advice either. 

I wish for a time when we turn off our TV’s and internet and learn how to get to know each other instead of listening to what the talking heads say about us.  I wish we could stop believing what these people say.  What makes them any better than us? I wish that someday we could all come together and love each other regardless of our differences.

Unfortunately, I know that none of this will never happen. 

Divided we stand.  Divided they will keep us because THEY like it that way.

You say you want a revolution?  You just might get one.