I don't know. I just stopped. I got involved in some books. And work. And my dogs. And everything. Everything else took place of sitting down and writing. Excuses, excuses right?
I wish I could say I had something to say but the truth is, I shut myself up. I don't know what to say. I know there are things I could say but then I get scared that I'll hurt someone's feelings. That I'll say too much and you'll judge me.
I did have my Air Conditioning go out. How did people survive before AC? I mean really? I thought I would die. And I love warm weather. But I realized...I love AC too.
Blame, blame, blame. Always something to blame. Isn't that what we do, as a people, these days? Blame everyone, for everything? I admit, I do it. Heck, I just did.
Even my therapist questions why I stopped opening up. Truthfully, I wonder, should I really put my thoughts out there? What if someone reads this and ends up hating me? If you think about it, I'll agree with half of my friends and disagree with the other half. How do we live like that? The stress of it (and I can't control it) kills me sometimes.
There are days when I am seriously scared to go on Facebook or Twitter because of some new law or thought or opinion. What if I agree? What if I disagree? If I say something, who will hate me? I don't deal well with that.
I keep my thoughts on the most demanding issues of the day silent. I really do not wish to offend. Seriously. I do not want people to hate me.
And so, sometimes, I just disappear. I feel better that way.
What was it Thumper said? "If you can't say something nice, don't say anything at all." I would amend that to say, "If you can't say something that would appease everyone and you want to stay friends with everyone, don't say anything at all."
Thank God for my therapist.
Thursday, July 23, 2015
Paper books vs. E-Readers
Lately, on several sites I visit there have been "debates" on what is better for reading: Paper books or e-readers. To be honest, I like both. I still buy what I like to term, book books, sometimes paperbacks, sometime hardbacks. I want to see books. I love the look of books. I love the feel of books. I love the smell of books (don't judge).
I received a kindle in 2010 when I was getting ready to go on a trip to Finland. Long plane ride. My mom (whom I never thought would do the techie book thing) had fallen in love with her kindle and said she would get me an early Christmas gift (my trip was in October). I got it and immediately found myself downloading tons of books, some free, some not so free (a lot of the classics are free). Fast forward 5 years later and I'm on my second kindle (I cried when my original died) and use my Kindle fire to read before bed (I'll explain later).
I moved into a townhouse recently. I've been looking for the perfect bookshelf. Until that time, I have books that are haphazardly spread around this house. I visit a once a month book store where books are one dollar (I give myself $10 to spend here). I have piles of "To Be Read" books in my room, in my second room and even in my living room. Not to mention the books I have read that are on the bookshelves I already have.
Then there are those times when I want to help out my independent bookstore. I go there, pick up a couple of books that I know they'll have, look around, pick up a couple more and before you know it, I walk out of the store with 4 or 5 books and my bank account $30-$60 lighter.
There's Amazon where sometimes, I can only get the hardback book I covet (the Outlander Series comes to mind here). And there's the "big box store" Barnes and Noble in my area. I go there, sometimes I buy there but they have more than books and that's the shiny thing that catches my eye. I'll walk out with something not a book, and then buy a book because I feel guilty. Yeah, it sucks to be me.
But I can't read book books all the time. My vision is fading and sometimes the print is just too small in those book books, even with my specially made reading glasses. Especially at night. And that is why I love my kindle. I can read books and change the font to suit my vision that night.
I read book books during the day and my kindle or kindle fire (in bed, with the brightness on low so it doesn't disturb the dogs trying to sleep) at night.
It's never the same book. HOWEVER, if I do read a book on the kindle that I've borrowed from the library OR bought at a really low price on Amazon and I love it and want it forever and I want to see it and touch and feel it, I buy the book book . I got the first Outlander book for free on my kindle and then bought all the ones after that on my kindle AND NOW I'M BUYING THEM ALL IN HARDBACK THANK YOU VERY MUCH! I've also always had the Harry Potter series and Twilight Series in Hardback and then went and bought them on the kindle so I could travel with all of them. LOL.
I wish the debate would just go away. In the end, isn't is just great that there are so many ways to read now. That there are so many more people able to read. Access to books and authors and new worlds and people and ideas are available to anyone. Why should it matter what format is used?
I received a kindle in 2010 when I was getting ready to go on a trip to Finland. Long plane ride. My mom (whom I never thought would do the techie book thing) had fallen in love with her kindle and said she would get me an early Christmas gift (my trip was in October). I got it and immediately found myself downloading tons of books, some free, some not so free (a lot of the classics are free). Fast forward 5 years later and I'm on my second kindle (I cried when my original died) and use my Kindle fire to read before bed (I'll explain later).
I moved into a townhouse recently. I've been looking for the perfect bookshelf. Until that time, I have books that are haphazardly spread around this house. I visit a once a month book store where books are one dollar (I give myself $10 to spend here). I have piles of "To Be Read" books in my room, in my second room and even in my living room. Not to mention the books I have read that are on the bookshelves I already have.
Then there are those times when I want to help out my independent bookstore. I go there, pick up a couple of books that I know they'll have, look around, pick up a couple more and before you know it, I walk out of the store with 4 or 5 books and my bank account $30-$60 lighter.
There's Amazon where sometimes, I can only get the hardback book I covet (the Outlander Series comes to mind here). And there's the "big box store" Barnes and Noble in my area. I go there, sometimes I buy there but they have more than books and that's the shiny thing that catches my eye. I'll walk out with something not a book, and then buy a book because I feel guilty. Yeah, it sucks to be me.
But I can't read book books all the time. My vision is fading and sometimes the print is just too small in those book books, even with my specially made reading glasses. Especially at night. And that is why I love my kindle. I can read books and change the font to suit my vision that night.
I read book books during the day and my kindle or kindle fire (in bed, with the brightness on low so it doesn't disturb the dogs trying to sleep) at night.
It's never the same book. HOWEVER, if I do read a book on the kindle that I've borrowed from the library OR bought at a really low price on Amazon and I love it and want it forever and I want to see it and touch and feel it, I buy the book book . I got the first Outlander book for free on my kindle and then bought all the ones after that on my kindle AND NOW I'M BUYING THEM ALL IN HARDBACK THANK YOU VERY MUCH! I've also always had the Harry Potter series and Twilight Series in Hardback and then went and bought them on the kindle so I could travel with all of them. LOL.
I wish the debate would just go away. In the end, isn't is just great that there are so many ways to read now. That there are so many more people able to read. Access to books and authors and new worlds and people and ideas are available to anyone. Why should it matter what format is used?
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